Bad dreams cant seem to adrift away

I am terrified and scared.... my exams that i had took 2 weeks earlier weren't that positive...2 paprs were done badly... I have a strong feeling that i will have to re-take both modules. As a result, i may have to graduate later by 6months. I do not want that to happen. I do not want to let down my parents who had brought me up since i was born. I know i owe them a huge debt and I hope i can repay them with my actions. I love you Mum n Dad..You two have sacrificed alot for me. Yet i am stubborn and ignorant to yr advice.

I regretted, i really do. What I wish and pray for now is to hope that i will not need to retake that both modules.I want to pass all. If I really do, i will put in my 101% effort onto it and fully concentrate on my studies like what i did during my lower sec yr times..


I am constantly praying and praying that i am going to pass all my modules this semester.. If not I cant live and will regret for the rest of my life.

confused..

oh yea...met you ytd...
was shocked over what happened to you..
Nothing can describe that awful pain in my heart..
But i am glad to chat with you..^^
thks for everything...

i am sick and you are there to care and concern for me..
Nothing can change the perception of you in my mind.
You are just one of the best people i ever met in my life..
Gratefully in debt of my life to you..
Thank you. ;(

Signing off,
The unexpected teen boy.

Emo...really emo...

I heard the devastating news u sent me...
I can't help but let my tears roll down my eyes...
What they did was intolerable..
inhumane is what i describe for them...
Its freaking pain but they took it off lightly..

You are strong..kind hearted and soft hearted..
No matter what u still can bear...
You are just so brave...

Everyday i think about you..think about what u and i can do.
Thks for consoling instead of the other way round.
You are someone i cant live without for the rest of my life...
My three words are for you..

I just cant describe any further..
you are just too good for me...
Treasure is what i am gonna do...
Dun ever leave me,
For i will always be there for you..
<3

Signing off,
The unexpected teen boy.

A day where how i wish time will stop[ for that instance ]

Tiring day after my third day of BSC of round 2. Did lots of things...were jokingly complaining to Mr Michael that we were tired of doing and doing.haha..
But it was a good day though...the previous leader was one fun loving leader to chat with..
Did not expect he stay so far..even further than me..wow..responsible leader i will say.

Anyway, TRUST is a powerful word i will say..
Although i had that 100%..but i still feel that it isn't..
Trying my best to win it, to obtain it.
You are the person that never fails to make it a satisfying one.
Wishing you are always there right before my eyes...
Every sec, every min, every hour, everyday, i will not waste that opportunity to spend it.
Thanks a lot.

Signing off,
the unexpected teen boy.

A shocking news

Heard the news and im Shocked..

Treated like a slave in and out...
Can't stand it though...
Mentally and emotionally are what i can only give you..
Thanks for that last message that u sent just now.
Needed that so much, that it feels so painful without it.
Nights everyone.


With love,
the unexpected teen boy.

A person that i met few months ago.

A poem for him. haha!!

>>>

Where are you going, where have you been?
My dear, close, and quiet friend.

Tell me your stories and I'll tell you mine;
And so we will pass a few hours time
With the quaint and the comic and even sublime -
Silently searching for that elusive sign.

We'll fashion the future and polish the past,
Allowing the memories to amass;
While the grains of sand slip through the glass
'Til a tranquil lull pervades at last.

Conversation fades with the eve's golden light,
We cannot go on, try though we might;
So you gather me an embrace so tight,
And we wistfully, longingly say goodnight.

[PS: we ain't T.X.L ><]
Although we only knew each other for couple of months, but i sense that he has already stepped into my life.
A great and extraordinary brother he is. We often chat everything and anything till late night.
You can say hes really one person that is always there for me.[ not forgetting about other friends,cliques i have too ]
Speechless is what i will describe.
Thanks for everything u have done for me..
Meet up someday, woots.

signing off,
the unexpected teen boy.

moody...

It is always so hard to contact or chat with you.
It seems that the relationship we have together are being strained day by day..

Your presence never fails to cheer me up.
But now it seems that i cant achieve that cheerfulness.
I tried to maintain the cheerful side of me by chatting with my clique and my fav bro- R_ _ _ _ _ d..

They indeed brought me life again..but i just don't know why i need that 'feeling' from you and i will be satisfied.

Hope we will remain in contact no matter where we are. thanks for appearing in my life..Its ~2years since we first met..

>< i am really an unexpected teen boy..a true one.